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About lizshine74

Liz Shine wrote and read her way out of small-minded, small-town doom. We’re not talking about riches here. We’re talking about how a practice like writing can save a person. How it can give hope, shape identity, and ignite purpose. She hopes to write stories and poems that move readers the way certain works have made all the difference to her. She lives in Olympia, WA in the USA. She believes in the power of practice and has been practicing writing since some time in the early 90s when she became an adult in the rain-soaked city of Aberdeen. Writing began with journaling, as a way to understand a confusing, sometimes violent coming-of-age. She writes mostly fiction, some nonfiction, and poetry, and holds an MFA from Pacific Lutheran University’s Rainier Writers Workshop. She has published in Shark Reef, Dual Coast, and Blue Crow Magazine. She is a founding editor at Red Dress Press.

Moving time!

Yep, me too. I’m headed over to Substack. I will leave all this content here. Over there, I will make new posts and curate some of the best of the old stuff. As always, with a mind to inspire your writing.

Check me out over there.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

Montana landscape

Take risks too.

            Last weekend, we drove to Montana for the weekend. We are two high school teachers whose kids are all grown up now. This year we’re being intentional about trying to insert some get-aways throughout the school year. This was our first one. The whole idea is a bit impulsive, indulgent, and even a little risky. To leave school on a Thursday at 4, take that Friday off, and drive through the night to arrive at our rental cottage in the town of Hot Springs at three in the morning. The weekend was wonderful, but that’s not what I want to talk about here. What I want to talk about is the unexpected afterglow and its impact on my creative process.

            I’ve been stuck in my writing. Feeling indecisive. Constantly working away at editing the same two books that at this point I can’t figure out why I wrote anyway. Believing that if I just approach it from a new angle, and edit that chapter one more time, I’ll be able to bring some life back into the projects. Not wanting to waste all that time I spent writing those thousands and thousands of words.

            How many times have I written on this blog that I’m here for the joy of writing?

            And yet here I am toiling away, not wanting to waste anything.

            The morning after we returned from Montana, the decisions were suddenly so easy. Start the new book that has been simmering on the back burner for almost two years now, that is the one you think about and care about now. Let go of any questions about what will happen to those other books or whether anything will happen at all. Write more poetry, dammit. How long has it been since you let a flash storm of words through you onto the page? Remember where you started. Remember how you lifted one poem at a time into this love of words, this word realm where you can get at the deeper, wordless parts of you. A paradox.

            Creative friends, this work demands structure and commitment, for sure. But is also demands risk, indulgence—impulsivity. Keeping these aspects in balance is a constant practice that thankfully we don’t have to do entirely alone.

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

close up of hand that is in the act of writing

If I experience X, I will do Y.

I’ve got a stretch of days with extra solitude. Chris is in New York geeking out over baseball and making memories with his siblings. Of course, I’ve turned it into a stay home writing retreat. After all, I am trying to meet a deadline, it’s summer, and this summer in particular creativity is my theme, my experiment, and the garden I’m growing this year. 

I woke up this morning and poured about an hour of my time down the digital drain. But then I kicked myself in the ass and set a timer. Setting a timer to focus on just one thing for a set amount of time works for me. It’s a damn miracle, to be honest. It seems to kick invoke the little kid in me who showed up with everything she had when the teacher set the timer for a page of math equations or paragraphs to read. Oh, hell yes. Do you doubt me? Set that timer and watch me go. 

Once I set the timer then I was in it. I stayed in it until it was time for yoga class, though it did get hard a few times when my mind landed on that old track that never has anything nice to say and wastes all her juice worrying about what other people will think.

Our yoga teacher invited us to “create space for ourselves” and described what setting a boundary looks like: “If I experience X, I will do Y”. Always need that reminder. For reals. You have to practice that shit all the time, and if you don’t use it, you lose it. Getting good at setting boundaries is not only good for you. It’s good for the people you take care of in your life too. That’s one thing I try to remember when I need to set a difficult boundary. Boundaries are an act of love and service to others. They give others permission to do the same. They make space for other people to do the work, solve problems, and take action. 

I was so grateful for this nugget offered mid-retreat today. When doubts about the worthiness of my story come up, I will keep writing. If I worry about the structure, I will keep writing. If I fall into contemplation of the publishing industry as it is, I will keep writing. For today, I will keep writing like I’ve got something to prove that is even more important than proving that I’ve mastered math facts. 

More retreat time tomorrow and the next day, with the goal of finishing a new draft of a novel I’ve been working on off and on for almost a decade. This summer is about tying up loose ends so that I can start a fresh book in the fall. Whatever it is you are working on, I am here for you. Let’s make time.

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

picture of a zine made by Liz Shine about how to make time to be creative

It’s summer. I have a plan. Watch out!

Dear, dear creative friends,

It’s been too long. I am writing to let you know I am still here making time. The need is more urgent than ever, because in spite of how you might think it should be (teacher in summer and all that), all this loose time can be hard to tame. And this summer I am desperate to get some writing done.

It’s been all I can do these past many months to keep a small trickle of words flowing through my creative faucet. The balance of creative impulse and creative flow has been out of whack and this sense of futility had started to creep in. You know the one. How does anyone ever write a book anyway? It’s not like you’ll ever make much money from all this work and you already have a job that covers what you need. Imagine all that time you’d have to read books and watch TV if you just gave up this whole writing charade. You all probably know what a load of crap that is. The practice of writing is the reward, there is an impulse to write that is an integral part of who you are. You do it because you love it because through the process you become a better, more compassionate version of you.

But I didn’t give up, and as soon as summer appeared on the horizon, I made a plan. There was no way I was going to pass through this summer with a sparkling clean house, a weeded garden, and barely any progress on my novel. Oh, hell no, as my good friend Carrie would say.

What’s the plan?

It’s so simple.

And it is working!

Each day from wake up to noon? Creative time.

No phone. No chores. Not even loading the dishwasher or anything else I tell myself I can do real quick. I do make coffee and walk the dogs, but then it is time to write. I have a small accountability group I check in with daily. So far this week I’ve edited seven chapters and gotten back to practicing guitar.

As luck would have it, There is often a yoga class offered at noon at my studio. I’ve been walking over there after my focused work and letting my yoga practice be my bridge back into the day-to-day work of householding.

My hope is to have a new draft of my novel by the end of July. Are you making time this summer? What are you working at?

Hubby is trying to get some songs recorded, so we’ve agreed to help each other prioritize creativity first every day.

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

fireworks

Week 4 of Poem-a-day–3 weeks late!

I had five poems left to write, and I stalled. It wasn’t just the poems. It was everything. Lately I’ve been having more trouble than I’d like to admit making time. It’s not just the scarcity of minutes of the day; It’s more than that. This voice has been creeping in, asking me what the hell I think I’m doing working for all these years–for what?! It may have something to do with the fact that my doctor put me on high blood pressure medicine. This knocked me for a loop, because I eat healthy and exercise and avoid processed foods, which means that it is probably stress, which I have to admit I’ve been living off forever. 

This sent me into one of those who do you think are/what makes you think you’re a writer phases. I was giving some advice I needed to another writer Saturday when my own advice smacked me right back–Do you hear yourself, dummy? I was reminding this other writer that we write because we have to, because we love it, because through the act of writing we discover and explore what we think and believe. We strengthen our vision, our empathy, our ability to appreciate the beauty of art and practice. So, on Mother’s Day,I sat in a reclining lawn chair on my front porch and busted out the rest of the poems for April. So, here they are. I hope you’ll write along with me in April 2024!

Keep making time, peeps. Even when you are writing through the muck of doubt and despair. You deserve this. You are enough. 

Day 22

Attunement

Discord happens

while we just get through the days.

A chorus of I-love-yous maybe can’t make up

for the times I focused on the ways you don’t, 

the days you soloed through my loneliness. 

So, I am grateful for moments of attunement,

where we take the time to listen, 

mimic, 

call and response, 

until we’re one instrument for a while. 

Day 23

Staff Picks

Sometimes I go to the bookstore and only

look at the staff picks, 

read the little cards of each.

I love best when they are handwritten, signed. 

Words: 

hope

devastating

lyric

illuminating

It will change you. 

What a peace I feel to be

in a world or people longing

to be changed by books. 

Day 24

Ode to Monday

Sometime around the time

masks started coming off,

I resolved to reframe you. 

To be going back to work and still

beating out the old refrain–”Well, it’s Monday”–

As if Mondays aren’t perfect days

for laughing, falling in love,

breaking the rules. 

Day 25

Summer (Sestina)

So, we’ve arrived, another season of sun–

the ch-ch-ch of sprinklers, time

to play, open the door, 

walk out in wonder,

flow like a river, blue-green.

It’s okay to spin your wheels.

I spent entire summers on wheels

riding the entiere stay of each day’s sun.

I remember you, eyes blue-green, 

the way you mocked time.

Did you ever wonder–

as I did–what was behind that door? 

One summer can be a door.

Fires within fires; wheels within wheels. 

Every day, chasing wonder–

fever-pitch with each returning sun–

believing there will be time. 

Whole day spent listening to one CD, feeling blue-green. 

I had this sun dress, blue-green

that I wore when I walked out the door

knowing, even then, I would not be home on time.

We had wheels!

And even after dark, the sun

glowed with our insistent wonder. 

We made sandwiches out of Wonder–

hah! Took them to the lake, blue-green, 

lounged on towels in the sun,

our hearts–wide open doors.

We would locate a feeling, spin it like a wheel, 

round and round again, frozen in time. 

Summer has its own rules regarding time. 

Hopping from wonder to wonder,

letting loose the wheels.

Heart–aimed at blue-green.

Flinging wide the doors. 

Long days spent half-naked in the sun. 

Day 26

Perspective

A blown dandelion

Tulip that lost it’s petals

One day–a big gorgeous poppy–

the next day gone.

There are many ways I could respond

to the fact of a lifespan.

I choose kisses,

cartwheels, 

favorite songs. 

Day 27

Mother’s Day

I’ve hit the phase of motherhood

where unless disaster is for certain

all I am called to do is 

cheer

from the sidelines

offer humble guidance

and pray.

Day 28

Lilacs

Lilacs brag, fragrant.

Dliecate. Plentiful. Boom! 

Bloom babies, Oh-bloom! 

Day 29

Hot Day

Sweat behind knees, 

no matter how much coffee drank–

on the verge of nap. 

Day 30

Testing Days

Standardize this, man!

Who even still thinks this is

not oppressive AF?! 

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

poetry stairs

Poem-a-day Week 3

Had some struggles this week. No prompts were speaking to me. Not a whole lot of breathing room, let alone poem-writing room in a day. Quite a few responsibilities came to bear their full weight. It wasn’t easy, but I got it done and I’m now moving on the Week 3 looking at that light at the end of the tunnel and running for it with my arms up high and a big-ass grin on my face. It’s not too late to join me in writing a poem-a-day this April.

Here are some places you can get prompts:

Writer’s Digest

Kelli Russell Agodon

PSP

Day 15

Staff Yoga Class with Sam

I invited the entire staff

FREE yoga, I cried!

Once my student, now my peer,

you arrived ready to teach.

Though it was time,

no one arrived,

so we sat on our mats

face to face, chatting. We were both

nervous–me, because as my idea

I’d imagined it grand and well-attended.

We would both teach–you one class,

me another. Teachers would set down their ungraded papers,

flock to staff yoga. We were both nervous–

You, because this was your day to teach,

and teaching is still new to you.

There was a moment before someone finally arrived

when I saw our selves like mirrors, each reflecting back to the other.

I saw your earnest smile, the joy behind your eyes.

In that moment, nervousness fled, and I felt

quite suddenly so happy to be so vulnerable and there.

Day 16

“Suffering maims” –Victor Pelerin

About suffering they were never wrong, he wrote.

The human condition.

And yet–no mud, no lotus–

it is true.

When I consider the spectrum of suffering,

I feel deeply grateful that I’ve

endured just enough to have deep roots in the soil,

a tough outer bark,

adornments (leaves) that thrive

and shimmer in the breeze.


Day 17

Prompt: Write a haiku

Leave-cups

Raindrops collect

on the cups of leaves–reserve.

Intelligent nature.

Day 18

Prompt: Write a love poem

It’s easy to lie,

say you’ve entered a new phase–

a more settled, mature phase

no longer achingly desperate,

no longer prioritizing desire over

risk of exposure or embarassment.

It’s easy to lie here,

reading our books in silence,

say this is all I need,

this isn’t boredom

or a failure of communication–

it’s just this age, this phase–

which is sometimes true,

but not always

and it isn’t always easy

to find the language at those times–I need

a codeword. Fire!, perhaps. Or–

hand.

Day 19

Sour

A bit of an acquired taste, I suppose.

Small children tend to hate it.

Perhaps the tongue gets bored,

begins to want something shocking,

pucker-worthy.

Fierce and bright.

Something with equal parts

danger and delight.

Day 20

Maya

We call you bullet.

Fast like a bullet,

but with bounce and grace.

You’re slower these days,

not so bad for an old lady though. Old lady,

who loves

napping in sunbeams

hiding under blankets

walks that happen on time

not stepping out into the rain

silence, kisses, and carpets.

Day 21

Prompt: Write a poem using these six words: bow, lean, park, saw, tear, wound

In upward-bow, I lean,

rock like a saw,

then park on my belly.

Sometimes through a tear in my armor,

a wound escapes and breathes with me a while–

heart open–fearce–about to break,

I heal.

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

April Poetry write a poem a day!

Poem.A.Day. Week 2, plus an update on making time

I know, I know. It’s a little crazy to be trying to write one poem a day for the entire month of April, especially when these last few months have been some of the most challenging I’ve seen in years for making time. In the past three months, I’ve had one weekend that wasn’t full of obligations on my time. I’ve got three fiction projects sweetly simmering and begging for attention. But. It’s April. It’s been more than fifteen years since I didn’t make an attempt at poem-a-day. Why?

It brings me joy. It provides a low-stakes opportunity to play with language, form, and concepts. It leads to an entire month spent doing what poetry does best: shining a light on the wonders of our lives, packaging those wonders in a short, concentrated form that can be taken in a short burst of concentration.

Here are the seven poems I wrote last week. Onward to week 3!

Day 8.

“But I was so sad that evening: I understand—as I have understood at different points in my life—that the childhood isolation of fear and loneliness would never leave me. My childhood had been a lockdown.” Elizabeth Strout, Lucy by the Sea

Sometimes for a long time, I forget,

and then I’ll freeze at the sight of her standing there,

just outside the door,

her hands tucked inside long sleeves, downcast eyes,

the me before me.

But, lately, I’ve been inviting her

to meditate with me at my imagined place

on the grass watching the still pond,

wondering at how the wind ripples the surface.

She just showed up one day,

sat down beside me, leaned in.

I put my arm around her shoulders,

whispered so glad you’re here.

Then the light broke through the clouds,

sent a shimmer across the surface.

Day 9.

“Toward the end of July, I had a massive panic attack, and as a result, many things in my life changed; huge changes were made.” Elizabeth Strout, Lucy by the Sea

Be grateful, she said,

as she coaxed us out of savasana

at the end of a practice

that brought me to the edge of possible.

Be grateful, for everything

that has brought you to this moment.

And I thought of how I’d gone to the emergency room,

my roadrunner heart in midair

not just one time, and doesn’t count

the times I decided to die alone.

I thought of how desperation brought me

to the yoga mat, where I began to heal.

Day 10.

“However, as each doll is placed inside a larger doll, over time the light of the innermost doll is forgotten. If you see the entire set of dolls put together, from the outside, you see only one doll—the outer shell. It’s easy to forget but you are so much more than just what you see, that you are the light and that light is radiance, truth, and beauty.” Tracee Stanley, Radiant Rest

A person inside

a person

inside a person—

Russian dolls—

faces to meet the faces.

Inside, a gem

that’s polished up,

ready to shine.

Day 11.

“I know how to work. Rest requires devotion and practice on my part.” Tracee Stanley, Radiant Rest

It’s difficult to unlearn

when you’ve elbow-greased it

for epochs, and entire relationships

rest on the foundation of our doing,

and it is the stuff you’ve made you’ve made

your potluck offerings of since you learned to make rice.

There is so much patterning to unwind

and so many reasons

to recline in this hammock

counting stars to fall asleep.

Day 12.

“Hoping to live days of greater happiness, I forget that days of less happiness are passing by.” –Elizabeth Bishop

I’d like to apologize

to ever Monday I ever shunned,

every day I clock watched my way through

every cloudy sky I didn’t admire.

Hello, sweet sadness.

Let’s sit a while, see if

we can understand each other.

I want to be so angry

the dishes in the cupboard clatter.

I want to let my grief stay long enough

to say all she needs to say,

stay a while in silence.

I’ve wasted too much time

already waiting for the wanderer, happiness.

Day 13.

Prompt: Write a forgive poem.

Come hither, love.

Let me place my hands

where you are holding on

to fear or doubt or hurt or anger.

Give me all the weight.

Let it go.

Yes, even the weight of

my words

my action

my inaction

my misjudgment

misidentification

my limited human imagination.

Forgive me,

I can be so small and unkind.

Day 14.

Prompt: And now for something completely different.

Bee-watching.

Olives on fingers!

Rock-skipping.

Echo making.

Dahlia viewing.

Ocean breathing.

Mmmmmmmm.

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

poetry stairs

Poetry month is here! Who is doing the Poem-a-day challenge?

Every year for more than a decade, I’ve been doing the poem-a-day challenge in April. This year is no exception! Will you join me? Share your poems to keep me inspired along the way?

I’ll be posting here by the week, which means I’ll have to save this post in draft and get caught up from the past three days before I publish this post. Do you see that little extra motivation I stacked up for myself? Haha.

I know that a poem a day might seem like a lot, but it doesn’t have to be. I set a timer and give it my best shot. What I write is what I write. I figure if I get at least a few gems by the end of the month, it’s been worth it to me. Most importantly, it’s an opportunity to play with words in a focused, concentrated way.

In the past, I’ve often used prompts, and there are many websites that offer them. I’ll post a few below. This year, I’m trying something different. It came to me when reading Awakening Artemis a few days ago. I came across a quote that rapped so insistently on the door of my heart that I had to use it, so I did. I enjoyed that process so much that I decided to spend this month collecting quotes from what I read to use as the basis for my poems.

Here are some places you can get prompts:

Writer’s Digest

Kelli Russell Agodon

PSP

Here are my poems so far:

Day 1

Sunrise Breakfast at the Yoga Retreat

Woke vulnerable,

reliant on someone else’s schedule,

the fact that someone else

would pour hot water through coffee grounds

so that I could hold that assurance

between two quivering palms.

A plant on the path—

a circle of fronds

in the center a pool of water collected,

a pond where tiny lavender flowers

dared to bloom.

Day 2

Prayer

The clock that is a year ticks toward fifty,

and I release the intense level of care around time

we cultivate when still trying to earn worth

in the adult world.

How many years was I a mother before I felt like one?

How many years a teacher before I believed I had anything in me worth learning?

How many years before I felt like a person worthy of grace in the world?

I see now that belonging is a given

but not a guarantee.

May I keep my hands in dirt,

keep my hands on the keyboard,

keep my hands around our children who are now

trying to earn their worth in the so-called adult world.

May I cultivate grace.

May I cultivate beauty.

May I cultivate a warrior spirit–theirs and mine.

Letting the foundation be there,

in the confident stance,

the resilience and flexibility of breath.

May I be bold enough to love,

in spite of the tendency to see the blemish before the bloom.

Day 3

Sores

Similar to scars,

only temporary.

Like this cold sore

acquired from an early boyfriend,

that sometimes comes out,

never at a convenient time.

A sign of contagion,

our eyes see,

then turn away.

Day 4

“When I listen to my hunger, the wildflowers of my passion and focus can break through pavement to guide me into light.” –Vanessa Chakour, Awakening Artemis

Hunger

I went to the kitchen

with a mission from God

as I understand them,

reflected in a wildflower,

a Whitman poem.

I ate and ate,

never felt full.

I walked one thousand miles

to a pool of enchanted water

I’m still swimming in.

Day 5

“The purpose of art is washing the dust of daily life off our souls.” –Pablo Picasso

Making sense

Woke up to write again

after a pause

and it felt a bit like spring cleaning:

Slowly, carefully washing the windows,

shaking out the carpets,

chasing dust bunnies from corners,

from under the couches and chairs.

I wrote two pages

on the verge of tears

and for the rest of the day

the world made more sense.

Day 6

“By trying to avoid our death our world becomes lifeless.” Vanessa Chakour, Awakening Artemis

What It Means To Be Dying

Okay, I get it. We all do.

Live like you could die tomorrow,

because,

of course,

you could.

Or today!

And still. That’s not a call to recklessness,

but an invitation to go slow, pay attention,

move with care and intention.

There is so much life

in a still pond,

a slow drive,

a full breath.

Day 7

“Walking is how the body measures itself against the earth.” –Rebecca Solnit

I Walked out in a Rage

I walked out in a rage

at you, but also at me,

because I keep finding myself

in this same place so it must mean that some fundamental mechanism

is not attached in me,

in me, in me.

Each foot hits the ground in a rhythm

the breath begins to match,

and though it is raining,

there is a full moon and

the cool water on my face–

earth’s baptism!

I remember then how just yesterday

we slowly ate a pomegranate and agreed

that life is a series of love letters,

including the one I’ll write to you with words in air

when I return to apologize and demand.

Clock with wings = time flies

What does it mean to be “busy”? Does time even exist? And everyday superpowers.

Still riding a yoga high from an early morning yoga class, on my walk to work this morning, this blog post landed on me. A few things that were said/moments I experienced over the last week or so came together and clicked for me. That feeling, at that moment, may be the closest I’ll ever get to my fantasy of being able to stop time and move around in it like Evie in Out of this World. 

The thing that clicked for me has everything to do with the theme of this blog–Make Time. What I realized is that “busyness” is relative and time as we know it does not exist. 

Let me explain. I am in my third week of yoga teacher training (which adds up to at least 20 hours a weekend, sometimes more). I’m working on renewal of my National Boards certification for teaching. I’m teaching full-time. I’m helping a talented woman get her stories out and into the world by editing and designing her book. Plus a few other things on the side. I’m guessing you’re thinking right now that I sound “busy”, and that I don’t have time. I’ve certainly been in spots like this where I felt that too. Not this time. 

“Busyness” is getting flayed a bit by wellness culture right now. A problem is: we define “busyness” by the number of things we fill our schedules with or have on our to-do lists. From what I can tell “busyness” is a state of mind. If I try to hold things in the future in my mind, I am busy. If I can stay present in the moment and do one thing at a time, I can pack a day to the brim and never feel busy at all. This will require a few things: practice, trust, and an open mind. Our minds run on the tracks we’ve laid out for them through repetition, so staying present will take practice. It may also require you to get your phone habits in check., because our devices are creating terrible habits of mind on top of everything else. Be patient and practice. Trust plays a role here. To be present, we need to trust that the future will arrive and that we will be present for it. What about an open mind? Well, it may turn out that on that list of thirty things you’re simultaneously thinking about doing, a third of them may never happen. A lot of “busy” people actually aren’t doing much at all. They are too paralyzed by how busy everything is. 

And then there is time. Our most precious resource, right? Yet, ironically, the more we think about how limited time is and try to hold it fast, the faster it goes and the less of it we have. In one sense, these past few weeks I’ve had less time. However, since so much of that time has been spent developing a mindfulness practice, I do not feel short on time. In fact, I feel sort of amazed at how much more time I have than I thought. My days are more packed for sure, but I feel as though I am moving in slow motion when I’m really in it. I’m certainly not thinking about not having time. 

We make time by staying present for the moment we’re in and letting go of our obsession with how limited time is. It is limited, of course. And no one knows just how much time they have. That’s the paradox. To savor the time we have, we need to trust and be. And you don’t need to be an alien from another planet like Evie to have her superpowers. 

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Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone

Woman drawing, trying to finish

An exploration of “finishing”

Last week, I finished a collection of stories I’ve been working on for twelve maybe thirteen years. I have memories of a retreat I went on with a writer friend somewhere along the way where I mapped out all the stories and their interconnections using overlapping circles and colored markers. This friend took a picture of me lying belly down on the deck of the cabin where we were staying. I look happy in the picture. I had finished the task of planning. That was twelve years ago. 

I came across that diagram the other day when I was cleaning out my file cabinet. Reviewing it’s contents, I had to laugh. So much had changed! The story hadn’t gone at all the way I thought it would. Characters names had changed. The order of stories and their titles too were unrecognizable to me. The seed idea was sort of the same, but even that had evolved to be something more specific than I had started with. 

As I was writing the last story in the collection, an insight came up for me that I’d had before. One of those lessons as a writer or a practicer of anything that we have to learn over and over. It is of course the goal of writing to some day finish. And by finish I mean feel satisfied that you’ve done all you can with a piece,  that it really is time to send it on it’s way into the world to see how it goes. The problem is that when we focus on finishing, we compromise the work itself.

Writing is a practice of staying in the moment, of being willing to be honest and present enough to bring the words to life. If in the back of your mind your desire to finish is nagging away, it will infect your work. The focus and attention to the moment of each story became more difficult to sustain the closer I got to the end. I kept starting and stopping because when my mind strayed to the future where I was finished, I knew the writing would be no good. It reminded me of the stories Dillard tells in The Writing Life  about some of the crazy things writers do to keep themselves in the flow. 

So I’ve “finished” and am taking a brief pause in taking up any big projects, taking the time to do some deep yoga work and write frivolous poems and stories for a few months. Four of the stories in the collection have found a place in the literary world. Below are links to where you can read those stories. Look for the whole collection in the not so distant future. 

May you make time and find flow, friends. 

The stories:

“Hungry”

“Desire”

Willpower

“Or Best Offer”

Interested in hiring me as a coach to get you boosted with your writing goals?  Find free resources and information here.

Some past posts to keep you making time: 

Adjust your pace accordingly.

It’s about the routine and how you shake up the routine

There are things you will have to give up

See it to achieve it

Washing the dishes

Write slowly

A celebration of the pause

Monday, a run through the driving rain

Zen accident

Get out of your comfort zone